Chaotic Farce


a photograph of you
November 12, 2009, 2:48 AM
Filed under: Photos

i really admire professional photographers. they can capture a moment in time so well, that they’re practically capturing a memory and freezing it in time so that you can look back and see it again.

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goodbyes
October 28, 2009, 5:17 AM
Filed under: Life

The only grandpa i have left has passed away and i’m miles away. I couldn’t say goodbye the first time to my other grandpa and now i’m in the situation where i can’t say goodbye again. Life and death, it’s such a fine line in between. One day you’re alive and stressing about tiny little details and next you’re gone. It comes when it wants to, it happens when it’s supposed to. How do you come to terms with life and death?
May you rest in peace, kung kung. ♥



music
October 16, 2009, 2:51 AM
Filed under: Photos

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ignorance
October 12, 2009, 6:44 AM
Filed under: Life

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i’m terrified i’m not going to grow into the person i am supposed to become, because somewhere along the line, i forgot who i am. my first instinct is to run away, but this time i’ll try not to because i want to do the unexpected, do the opposite of what you expect me to, i’ll do the exact opposite of what you hope i’d do.



faraway
October 1, 2009, 12:22 AM
Filed under: Life

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house
September 22, 2009, 12:08 AM
Filed under: Life, Rants

it’s weird being back here in manchester this time round. i feel like a fresher feeling strange and awkward with the currency, with the crowds and the environment feels overwhelming. i can’t exactly pinpoint the cause of the strangeness but i assume it is partly due to my new home in an entirely new location.



home sweet home
September 17, 2009, 11:41 AM
Filed under: Life

tonight is my last night being back home in brunei. i just wanna spend it laying on my wonderful bed in my wonderful room, surrounded by everything that is familiar and loved. i’m going to miss brunei. :(



september
September 5, 2009, 3:34 PM
Filed under: Life
Some September favorites, originally uploaded by ♥ Moa Maria.

sometimes it’s easy to forget that there’s more to life than just this. whatever we have, whatever we’re going through… the world doesn’t stop. i find that i have to constantly remind myself that there is more to life than just this.



inner rage
August 9, 2009, 8:52 PM
Filed under: Life

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i enjoy reading postsecret because honestly, i’m just too kepo for my own good. ;D



life ohhh life
August 7, 2009, 4:48 PM
Filed under: Life, Rants

when you take a look at blogsecret on tumblr or even postsecret, you’ll notice a lot of them are from being burnt by love. for something that is supposedly so pure and special, it sure messes people up a lot. you could even say that sometimes it stops people from living, literally or not. it’s amazing how this world and this life works, i can’t even begin to fathom it.

for most part, i find it scary to be alive. it’s challenging to go through the entire motion and sometimes it’s just a lot easier to call it quits. not saying that i wanna die now of course..

there you go, this is my deep and (sort of) meaningful post for the month.

on the bimbo side, wtf can’t i lose weight like before?!?